This is a line in the song Say I Won’t written by Mercy Me. I heard it several times before I got what Bart Millard was talking about.  Here is a link to this song.

Understanding this line in Say I Won’t happened this way. In the sermon Pastor Jan preached, she was talking about sanctification. This is a big word for maturing in your faith, growing closer to God, and being who God intended you to be. She recommended a short book called Sit, Stand, Walk by Watchman Nee. I read the first part of the book called ‘Sit’ over and over, highlighting so many enlightening statements until it dawned on me what “Going 35 with a Rocket Inside” meant. 

Christ is in me. He has been since I gave my life to Him as a small child. But I always had the compulsion to work for Christ. I didn’t let Him have control because I was always trying to fix myself for him. I never got that I was supposed to abide but rather felt like I needed to correct myself for him. It is like when I clean my house for the housekeeper. I am trying to clean up the clutter before I let Jesus clean the really bad stuff. When all I needed to do was throw the door open on my disorder. He can’t ‘Marie Kondo’ me unless I get out of the way. I didn’t understand that I was to relax in the satisfaction that I am forgiven and I should rest in the Lord because he is in control IF I only will sit down and let him drive. The Holy Spirit, which has been in me since I was born into Christianity, is the rocket inside. Yet I have been grabbing the wheel from Him and driving 35 mph for all these years. 

And so I must learn to let go of my annoying compulsion to fix me because Christ already did that when he sacrificed himself on the cross. My sinful self of yesterday, today and tomorrow was nailed to that cross and covered by his precious sacrifice.  As another line in the song says, “I will be dancing when circumstances drown the music out.”